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worthlesslife @ 2005-09-29T12:51:00

2005-09-29T16:54:42Z

the thrill of being in college has officially worn off. some of my teachers are utters pains in the ass! jesus. i missed a humanities class because of my surgery. i just got an email from the teacher telling me that if i fail his class, i will fail the rest of mine, and be expelled from la roche. damn him. i mean seriously. one class. come on. i was drugged.

anyhow. yeah. other than that life is alright. i guess. i may not be able to dance again. but as lenora reminded me, you don't always have to be able to dance to be in shows. so that said, i'm preparing to audition for christmas carol down at the byham. i can't wait. if i get enough stage time with this show, i could get my equity card, which would help me out a lot. i'd get more shows. woohoo.

i'm sitting in the library at skool. i feel like shit. its so cold outside. my foot hurts. i'm hungry. and thats my complaining paragraph. haha.

anyhow yeah. life sucks. as usual. so i shall be leaving you with that happy note. rememeber that my children.....

LIFE FREAKING SUCKS!

worthlesslife @ 2005-09-01T15:30:00

2005-09-01T19:32:19Z

i haven't updated in like forever! damn! okay. college has started. its alright. i don't have that many classes so i spend most of my free time in the library. yes. i actually went into a library. shocking, isn't it? yeah. i'm getting surgery on sept 7th. my ankle is totally FUBAR. and if you don't know what that means, your loss. i'll tell you if you really want to know. otherwise, life is alright. bill and i broke up. i'm usually the one that does the dumping, but he dumped me. gasp! oh well. i'm actually going to study. such a new word for me. update more later! love ya!

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worthlesslife @ 2005-07-09T20:15:00

2005-07-10T00:24:23Z

so, i guess its time to update again. umm..not to happy of an update here...i started the dance intensive @ la roche on the 5th...ballet and pointe went great. i loved it. lana is a great teacher. then jazz happened. i swear i have bad luck with jazz. the first half of the class went great, warm ups were great, the first combo was great. then we started the second combo. we had to do an axel, well, axels are not the easiest thing to do, mind you. they're real hard. so, i did the jump to start the axel, and landed on the side of my ankle. it swelled up right away. so, i ended up driving into CLO to pick up my mom, and go to the emergency room at jefferson. it was diagnosed as a bad sprain. so i left with a weird ankle brace...i went to see dr. stone at UPMC south side yesterday. he diagnosed it, after re-examining my xrays, as a grade 3 sprain, and a torn ligament. i won't need surgery, thank freaking god, but i start physical therapy on monday. dammit.

well, whats everyone else's summer like? huh? fun? i'm so bored. i really can't do much due to the fact that i have to drag crutches around with me til after therapy on monday. dammit.

anyway, i'm gonna get going. hope everyones summer is cool. bye

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worthlesslife @ 2005-06-15T10:15:00

2005-06-15T14:22:16Z

sound of music opened last night. so many nazi's! travel nazi. ha. anyhow, it was amazing. paige did great, rob did great, all the little von trapp children did splendidly. the littlest one, allie, who plays gretl, is so cute. she's like maybe 5 years old. i want one. haha.
i worked back stage for the show. i'm the "kid wrangler"/assistant dresser. yep. finally got a fun job, and i get to see the show for free, or atleast the back of the ppls heads who are on stage performing. lol
helen karloski is in it, she did great. she was a nun, and a party attendee i guess you would call it. it was laura's bday. yay laura!

well, i have to call lori, cuz mere wants to go and help tonight, so i will update later.

oh yeah! the cast party was freaking crazy. mere was scared to talk to paige davis, so i had to talk to her for her. auntie e was slightly drunk i think. we had a conversation about a "third boob" that could bark. haha. yeah. drunk.

now that that is out of my system i will go. goodbye my children. and if meredith were here she would scream "i smell children!" byes!

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worthlesslife @ 2005-06-13T10:51:00

2005-06-13T14:55:34Z

well the grad party was quite an interesting experience. yes indeed it was. uh..i got attacked by mike, my cousin, with waterballoons, then a bucket full of cold water, then a towel with ice in it. yes, he attacked me multiple times. then we tried to play football and i couldn't throw the ball worth crap cuz it was all wet cuz it stormed like crazy. indeed.

sound of music opens tomorrow, paige davis is in it. can't wait to meet her. haha. thats the perk of CLO. get to meet all the famous ppl. oh well. i'm supposed to be cleaning my room, so i will continue to do that for a while. if you need me call my celly!

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worthlesslife @ 2005-06-08T18:37:00

2005-06-08T22:41:57Z

i went to opening night of clo's "a little night music". it was....horrible! my god. the set and costumes were great. robert newman was great. everyone else was..umm. interesting. mere, i'm sorry i dragged you along. haha. i was ready to fall asleep. i knew too many ppl there. everywhere i turned i had to talk to someone else. other than auntie e who simply said 'i have to pee real bad'.

grad party saturday. im gonna go. its to hot in this damn room.

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worthlesslife @ 2005-06-02T18:52:00

2005-06-02T22:58:49Z

haven't updated in a while. went up to the skoolish today to help with the uniform fitting chaos. twas fun.

bit of advice:
when you hear ppl talking about barry manilow, and gambling, run. run very fast. the convo went from barry m. to hiding money in underwear. yes. run fast my small children. run fast.

sang a song for d.c. yes. very emotional. NOT. lol. i sang "for good" from the best damn show there is. WICKED! wOOt. yes. i did say wOOt. got a problem? lol she liked it. it reminded me of her, so i sang it. mmmkay? lol

gettin ready for my grad party. its on the 11th of this month. yes. the 11th. 3:30 til god knos when. tehehe. then off to sanibel island for two weeks. while there i will celebrate my 18th bday. hooray! 18 finally.

found out yesterday that i got a $5,000 academic scholarship to La Roche. don't kno how i pulled that one off. hahaa. yes'm. well...

i'm gonna go. life is short, and i'm going to spend most of it cleaning. goodbye.

worthlesslife @ 2005-05-29T10:38:00

2005-05-29T14:46:43Z

boy do i need to talk to somebody. this has been yet another very eventful weekend in my life. weee. yay for eventful

first- parade practice. i had the worst fuckin migrane ever

second- graduation. yay. i've graduated! haha. took only what, 4 years? haha. it was fun. mere went. yay for graduation

third- pink frolic. pink frolic is a ball held by the clo guild to raise money. i was hired to waitress and work the pink boxes. pink boxes are obviously boxes. they patrons buy tickets for $25 and come to me and pick a box. i then open the box and give them the prize inside. the best prize i saw last night was season tickets to pitt panthers football. lol
after the boxes are all sold my waitressing duties began. i didn't do well at first cuz an old friend was performing. lenora nemetz. she sang "girl next door" and a medley of all of the musicals she's ever been in which includes west side story, cabaret (on broadway), gypsy, bye bye birdie, and many more which i am too braindead to think of. then her and i had a very very interesting convo about something that i have been wondering about. haha. yes indeed. didn't get home til around 3 due to the continous serving of alcoholic beverages to my ride home. haha.

well. i'm goin to kim's grad party today, laura's too if i can make it. gotta pick up merebear. i'll update later.

<3
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worthlesslife @ 2005-05-23T21:05:00

2005-05-24T01:10:42Z

just found out that dina is going to be presenting at the tony's! wee! june 5th! everybody watch! haha

went up to the skool today to help with silk tryouts. tried to fill out a form to try out but amy wrote real big across it "DENIED"...i was crushed. not really, but we can pretend. haha

anywho..yes...grad is on friday. i'm somewhat happy, somewhat sad. mostly happy. haha.

tomorrow, i gotta be back up at the skool for silks yet again, and then change, and go to the senior awards ceremony.

i don't kno what else to say. bored. tired. sad i'm tired at 9 at night. anywho. yes, i'm going to get going. if anything else exciting happens, i shall update. goodbye children!

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worthlesslife @ 2005-05-20T10:00:00

2005-05-20T14:07:24Z

my last dance with sls ever was last night. prom 2005, remember me this way. it was a blast. devon stepped on maggie's ankle, i danced uncontrollably, sami and i cried our eyes out and wouldn't let go of each other. i miss her already! haha. going to kennywood today. i hope it stops raining. auntie e said it was supposed to be nice in a little while. i hope she's right.
no more school! wow. that was really delayed but alas, no more school. graduation is on the 27th!
i have to be up at the school all this week whether i want to or not! dammit! monday and tuesday i gotta be up there 2:30-6. wednesday gotta be up there 8am...and then 4- whenever. thursday i got grad practice at the church. friday choir practice up at the school, and then grad that night. weee!
well i'm gonna go get ready for kennywood. ryan and mere are picking me up at 11. if anyone is going, i'll see you there!

SAVE THE OREO!

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worthlesslife @ 2005-05-05T15:39:00

2005-05-05T19:42:51Z

6 days left! 6 days left! 6 days left! 6 days left!

weee! so, yes only 6 days left of good ol' sls! i'm gonna miss that place. NOT! what really sucks ass is that okay..i get out the 13th...then i have finals 3 days. then i have to be there the 23, 24, and 25 to help with silks tryouts. the 24 and 25 i think i have grad practice. the 26 i have grad practice. the 27th i have mass choir practice for grad up the school. so i'm never gonna freaking leave! dammit!

okay. i'm really really wound up right now. i have no idea why. actually i do, but hey. lol. wee. okay. byes!

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worthlesslife @ 2005-05-03T14:58:00

2005-05-03T19:01:23Z

Hey ya'lls...okay...today i def sounded like a man. i still do. dammit! like seriously, like a fucking man. god damn the voices of the world that decide to not work. no, and what really sucks about it is that tomorrow mr mc wants mary and i to record "you raise me up" and i have no fucking voice to sing!!!! god dammit all! well, i'm gonna go make sum tea so i can attempt to sound normal...weee...i'll update more later if nething fun happens.

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worthlesslife @ 2005-05-02T16:23:00

2005-05-02T20:32:14Z

got home from disney last night. hooray! it was awesome. minus the getting hit by a duck, but yes, it was fun. i felt bad because like the last couple days everyone started getting sick. like mere was sick, bobby and amy were sick, amanda didn't have a voice. and i was like that sucks esp since we're in disneyworld and all.
went down to pleasure island. 0:) it was fun. right now im exhausted. i didn't sleep very much the night before last. lizz and i stayed up and talked becuz we were so awake. lol. then fell asleep around 3 and woke up at 5ish or sometime. then last night when i got home i couldn't sleep cuz i was so awake yet again. blah the awakedness of the world. so i fell asleep a couple times in school today. tried to keep myself awake though. lol. well i'm gonna go.....

m- hope you're having fun on your cruise. even though you'll never read this!

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worthlesslife @ 2005-04-25T08:38:00

2005-04-25T12:42:23Z

okay. 26 hours and....okay i lost count of the minutes, but its a lot...haha...any way, thats how long til we leave for disney. cannot wait. its gonna be so much freaking fun and i serioulsy cannot wait. i woke up this morning and was like "its tuesday" and then started to get ready to leave for disney. about an hour later my alarm went off and said "its monday morning!" i was like wtf! te he he....to clarify for those of you as dumb as mere, my alarm does not talk. the radio does. dammit...stupid ppl. anyhow...yes. i cannot wait until disney. wOOt. i'm packed and ready to go. so cannot wait!! hahaha!

well i'm in a study hall so i'm gonna go. but i will update more later...goodbye my loves! sweetdreams, farewell, and all the rest of that shit!

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worthlesslife @ 2005-04-24T13:39:00

2005-04-24T17:42:30Z

two days til disney! cannot freaking wait! wee! its gonna be so much freaking fun! dammit!
anyhow, yeah. fun. i'm so bored. talked to mere last night, she said that canevins musical sucked ass. lol. wish i could've been there. yeah man.
well, aunt rosa's comin over for dinner today. so i gotta go help cook
(oh dear god. me cooking. haha!)
A out!

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worthlesslife @ 2005-04-23T15:58:00

2005-04-23T20:03:16Z

disney in 3 days. cannot wait. i'm so siked. i'm supposed to be writing an anatomy paper right now, but i seem to be having severe ADD. as usual right? lol.
went to the senior dance thingy last night. it was fun. they actually had a red carpet and stuff. it was cute. lol. fun. lol.
i'm so freaking ready for florida. wee. stalking mickey mouse, being a crab that can only walk straight, but is going left, it shall be fun. wee!
well i'm going to go finish this damn paper. byebyes

worthlesslife @ 2005-04-22T16:07:00

2005-04-22T20:38:34Z

senior mixer tonight. my last skool dance (besides prom) *Tear* not! haha. umm..anyhow...meeting the girls up there at 7:15. wOOt. can't wait. don't have any idea what i'm going to wear but ya know. it happens. any ideas? oh well.

4 days til disney! thank god! i cannot wait to go! hooray! dude, its gonna be freaking awesome! minus the girl talk, that might not be so awesome (don't ask) but yes disney is the place to be! dammit! haha

okay. well i'm going to go make myself look purtyful for the dance.
go class of 2005! almost done! wOOt!

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worthlesslife @ 2005-04-21T18:20:00

2005-04-21T22:24:06Z

5 days til disney. woo and yay. or as i say, hooway! haha. had practice after skoolish today for the parade in disney. it was interesting. here's the most hilarious quote of the day "look at me. i'm a crab. i only walk straight. but i'm going left!" wow.guess u had to be there

but yeah. not much to say. stress is taking over my life yet again. dammit. bye

worthlesslife @ 2005-04-20T18:43:00

2005-04-20T22:47:51Z

my last spring concert is over. *tear* i was told today that i looked like a chicken with its head cut off. thanks. ha. last night wasn't as bad. the order was chorus (not in) flute choir (in) brass ensemble (not in) my piece (obviously in) intermission. awards and that shit. then concert band (in) jazz band (in) and silks (in)
today was like 10 times worse. alright. i had to change into my silks costume in like 3 sec and back out of it in like 2 secs. god. then before silks i couldn't find my ballet shoe which i still cannot fucking find dammit! then after that i was like so effed up. dizzyness. i hate it. but i'm going to go now. i have to do an anatomy paper. see ya later

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worthlesslife @ 2005-04-18T20:13:00

2005-04-19T00:26:20Z

a lot of shit happened today that has made me question my decisions in the past, such as who i am friends with, what groups i associate myself with, and what not. and i really don't know what has caused me to make the decisions i have. intuition i guess. call it what you will.
there are people in my life who act like they are the best of friends then turn around and talk shit on me. seriously guys, i have enough shit going on in my life that i don't need anymore. people criticizing the way i look, dress, act. thats my business not yours. telling people who mean so much to me things that are not true, making me feel worse about myself, then lying to my face about it. not cool ya'll. honestly, there is no way to kno who is gonna turn around and stab you in the back. quoted from someone. props to you. but yanno, its true. threats come, accusations come, what are we supposed to do? i am the way i am. i will always be the way i am. i'm not going to change for you, him, her, it, whatever. i like the way i am. i'll admit i have faults that i do not like, but hey, no one's perfect. not even YOU! Silks- i love u all. but my costume is my costume. if you do not like it come to me and say it please. i don't mind it and i'm willing to change it if it would make all of us as a whole look better. but there are limitations to what you can do ballet in. i understand where you are coming from and i am going to make a change, but come to me next time please. You- you kno who you are. i'm not going to stop talking to my best friend because you say she's lying. i kno you so well and i kno that you said all the things she told me you did. you can deny it all you want, you can say what you want, you can freaking call me 40 times. that doesn't mean i'm going to listen. i've given you multiple chances to make it right. you won't. and i'm not going to spend the rest of my life waiting for you to calm down. everyone else- thanks for being supportive. life is a challenge for me. so much shit to do in so little time. seriously. lol. but yanno, you've been there for me through everything. and this is to everyone. EVERYONE! i don't kno what i would do without ya'll. theres a quote from a person i will leave anonymous. most of you will kno who it is when u read the quote. "lifes a bitch and then you die". ha. i'm to the point of believing that. say what you will. but i am. i've been here before and i'm back. its not fun. but you all have helped me in so many ways i don't kno how to thank you. honestly. so thanks. yeah. thanks.
i'm rambling aren't i? i just need someone to vent to. everyone i usually talk to about this is busy cleaning, or computer privledges are gone and what not. so i'm doing it here. indeed. so i will go now. i will leave you all at rest. no more venting for now. i just wish i knew what it was that people expected out of me. grrr...
i'm seriously gonna go now. bye

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worthlesslife @ 2005-04-17T13:19:00

2005-04-17T17:23:22Z

bored as anything. almost got my RAGTIME paper done for manears class.

good luck to the cast and crew of once upon a mattress on ur last show! wish i could come see you guys again. too much shit to do here tho.

oh well. just a quick update there. i gotta finish this paper today.

dress rehearsal tomorrow for spring concert. yay. if ne silks read this remember to bring your costumes. i will be doing the phone chain later so yeah. i'll talk to ya'll later neway.

<3
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worthlesslife @ 2005-04-17T09:21:00

2005-04-17T13:32:36Z

Who Am I?
Name: Alison
Age: 17
Gender: Female
Height: 5'4"
Appearance: blonde hair, blue eyes, working on loosing weight, dancer's body
Passions: dancing, ballet, broadway, musicals, writing, art, poetry, composing
Fears: trucks and my mother
Annoyances: immaturity, nebshits, haters, posers, the usual
Where from: originally, brooklyn, now, pgh pa

These are a few of my favorite things
Actor/Actress: idina menzel, frenchie davis, lenora nemitz, mel, sutton foster, sherri rene scott, heather headly, adam pascal, jimmy brennon, many many more
Color: red, pink, roygbiv. lol. all the colors!
Interest: dancing, performing
Broadway Show: Wicked, RENT, Aida, Hairspray, Avenue Q, Beauty and the Beast, Brooklyn, Bombay Dreams (go manu and gina!), any and every broadway show
Broadway Character: Elphaba, Audrey, Maureen
Music: mostly musicals, 80's music, country, rock, pop, a little bit of everything
Movie: center stage...it shows people what being a dancer is really like. no one understands us until they see that movie

Personality Dialysis:
Maturity Level: mature when i need to be. otherwise a child at heart just like everyone else
Leadership skills: i'm not a very good leader. i try. i'm not a follower either, so who knows. i guess i'm lost inbetween somewhere.
Extrovert or Introvert: that depends. if i'm around friends def extrovert. if i'm around new ppl, def introvert.
Tidy or Messy: with my life schedule i don't have time to clean anything. haven't you seen my locker?

worthlesslife @ 2005-04-13T15:45:00

2005-04-13T19:46:20Z

You scored as NEW YORK. HOW YOU DOIN? YOUR A NEW YORKER!

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NEW YORK

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WASHINGTON

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LOUISIANA

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California

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NEVADA

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UTAH

33%

WYOMING

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FLORIDA

What state should you live in?
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DUH! i could've told you that. lol

worthlesslife @ 2005-04-13T15:10:00

2005-04-13T19:14:05Z

going to the musical tonight again. just to see it again. yeah. the out to eat n park. wOOt. other than that nothin exciting goin on here. i don't feel much better today. you can ask maggie, i was quite out of it this morning. lol. but right now i guess i feel alright. yeah.

but okay. i don't really have much to write. so i'm gonna go get changed so i can leave asap for da musical. bored as anything. but yeah. ha. bye

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I fEeL LiKe A PiLe Of ShIt

2005-04-12T22:11:19Z

i feel like a pile of shit as i above stated. a real big pile of shit. i'm still shaking pile of shit. lol. i guess shit doesn't shake but i am. grrr...okay. well. not going to reveal all the details of my life since that seems to be one of the flaws that some people think i have. for those of you who care ask. the rest of you, fuck off. tehehe.

had silks. interesting ending to that. i am now trying to stop shaking and write a manear paper. i have about a paragraph written. its pretty good so far i suppose. i feel like i'm gonna puke.

i'm going to see the musical again tomorrow. just for kicks. gonna hang out up in the booth with merebear then hitting eat n park after with the girlies. shall be fun. i still feel like i'm gonna puke.

i guess i should eat something. i don't really want to. nothing good. leftovers. blah....not eating those. i'm going to continue working on my paper. and trying not to puke. some people are so insensitive. i'm gonna leave it at that.

and merebear, the person i'm trying to change is not you. its me. you should have figured that out after what happened today. just in case you didn't, i'm telling you now.

somebody please call me and save me from writing. i enjoy writing, but not when i have toooooooo...dammit....puke...blah....

goodbye all. its been nice knowin ya!
jk

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